girl's struggle to embrace God's design for relationships,
one woman's journey into wholeness in marital intimacy.
Music Made In Heaven:
An album of 12 original songs, all part of the
Made in Heaven story, a musical chronicle of
Nancy's struggle to embrace God's design for relationships.
Music Made in Heaven
12 original songs
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Liner Notes & Lyrics
The songs on this CD are
all a part of the storyline in the book Made in Heaven, Fleshed Out
on Earth, which chronicles my struggle to embrace God’s design
for relationships. The book opens with me as a new Christian falling
in love with the first of a series of Mr Wrongs.
My mother had often said that I should marry a veterinarian, because
of my love of animals and the outdoor life. Well, this guy wasn’t
an animal doctor, but he was a doctor—and he was an animal!
He’s Twenty-Nine; He’s an Animal Doctor
Until we learn to keep our eyes on the Lord, we will find that we
become fixated with many other things—like telephones that don’t
ring when we wish they would.
It was driving me crazy, waiting like this. He would be glad to
know that. To listen to him talk, it seemed that his fondest goal
in life was to get all his friends committed to mental institutions.
Babysitting the Telephone
Loneliness and lust can cause us to stumble and fall. But I wanted
to learn to “walk in the light as He is in the light.”
(1 John 1:7, KJV)
I repented of my lust—for now—and resolved to flee
temptation. I would try to draw closer to God in my loneliness.
Prayer of Repentance
God uses our trials as a refining fire, bringing forth a faith in
us more precious to Him than gold. The way is often painful and difficult,
but if we yield to Him, we find that He can be trusted.
He was giving me glimpses of holy mysteries, even as I wrestled
with my lust and my loneliness. Sometimes I wanted to run away and
hide from the responsibility of this new knowledge, but mostly I wanted
God to take me higher, to completely have His way in me.
“For the sinful nature desires what is contrary to the Spirit,
and the Spirit what is contrary to the sinful nature. They are in
conflict with each other, so that you do not do what you want.”
(Gal. 5:17, NIV)
I felt so much shame at the dark condition of my heart. In response,
God simply showed me how much He loved me, exactly the way I was.
I holed up in my room with my guitar
to get it all out in a song—a song that I call
Revelation at Rockford
I had invited a good-looking heathen to accompany me to a Christian
movie, hoping to influence him for God. After a wonderful evening,
he drove me to where I’d left my car. At his request, as we
parted, I gave him one little kiss, which threw me into an emotional
I had kissed this guy; what now? As a Christian, I didn’t
have much of a repertoire to draw from in this genre. I didn’t
want to go any further than a kiss. Now I had used up the whole program
on the first date. All the way home I kept banging on the steering
wheel and crying out to God:
What Will I Do for an Encore?
The foregoing incident reminded me of how easily I could be taken
in by the deceitfulness of my old nature. I recommitted myself to
my first Love, trusting Him to keep me true.
Our life here passes away like a vapour on a summer’s day
And only what’s been taken to Your Cross, Lord, will remain.
My pastor preached a sermon one Sunday on the principle of sowing
and reaping. He highlighted the grace that God has extended to us
in Christ, saying, “God will always forgive you—but He
will not necessarily give you a crop failure.”
I knew that I had been planting seeds into my lower nature, and
although I kept repenting here and there along the way, I’d
had cause to write an unhappy song:
It’s Still Coming Up Weeds
One last time, in a funk of loneliness, I turned to a young male friend
for companionship instead of turning to God. The young man discerned
God’s will in the situation and gently refused my company. I
had a full-blown temper tantrum at the Lord, until I finally broke
The presence of God came over me, soft and peaceful like a warm
blanket, and I knew somehow that this battle was won, once and for
all. Still on my knees, I pledged to serve Him single, if that was
His will, one day at a time for the rest of my life.
Just six days after I wrote this song of surrender, Mr. Right
walked into my life.
It Amazes Me
At the conference where I met Greg, I was sitting playing the piano
alone late one night when he and a young lady walked in to listen.
After a bit, I switched from my worship theme to a love song. Just
as I began, the young lady headed up to bed.
Oh, no! I thought, I can’t finish this with Greg
sitting here alone in the dark. He’ll think I’m singing
it for him. I had a sense of the Lord sitting next to me on the
He was laughing. I didn’t plan this, Lord; I didn’t!
I know, He seemed to say, I did. Keep singing.
How Would You Feel?
I wrote the following song during the long-distance courtship, singing
it for Greg when he came out to visit me for our second date.
And I’ll tell you once more in a letter if you really want
But I’d rather wait till you are here to say I love you
How Many Times?
It had been back on Valentine’s Day, the day I received Greg’s
first letter, that I knew God was putting a marriage together. That
same day I wrote a love song. Several months later I recorded it so
it could be played at our wedding, a celebration of God’s faithfulness.
Lord, I want to sing to you this love song, just to thank You
for the joy that’s in my heart.